why am i happy yet sad?
maybe not sad,but worried.
but why am i worried?
i was so happy when i saw the results.
but as time passes, i dont think im going to be real happy.
im lost.
pick me up,someone.
why do i feel insecure?
why do i have to keep complaining and now i feel so...
worried?
someone,who will know me well,i wish u were here.
even though u always said im not alone,i know u dont think that way.
i would rather u taking your cool mask off your face.
and i know im sorry.
i always complain, but u never stop forgiving me.
no one is perfect.
why cant i just get that in my head?
how long do i have to wait?
years?
decades?
im afraid.
im cold.
maybe God wants me to try it out.
I have never tried that for years.
will it be a success?
i thought that was what i want.
but my hopes are dashed.
would i be able to find u?
guess i have to wait.