These few days not in a good mood.
I cant breathe.
Sometimes,
I just wanted a break.
But there isnt any..

Exams are over.
where many students feel so relax..
but i feel that i have much much more to do..
HMT lessons,
training during the holidays..
Every mon,wed,fri,
and DOUBLE session somemore..
feel like im going to faint..

I seriously need a break..
I wish I could take a one year break..
then i will go back to work hard again..
but it seems that i cant..
well,
i guess some are feeling this way too..
When we excel,
we're happy,
and even when we're happy,
we still have to work,
even harder.
And the thought of working hard makes me feel so sick
and to be with ppl whom I'm not comfortable with for 1 whole year.
I wished i had the courage to back out.
And even when I'm there, I will be like invisible..
which i dont see the point of being there for a whole year..
Even though its something that i enjoy,
the people who I'll be with will destroy my love for it.

Should I give the chance away?
Or should I be selfsh and just cling on to it?
Please give me the answer.
I dont want to be miserable for one whole year.
Like in the past.

Maybe I shouldn't think so much.
Or maybe I should say.
But I'm carrying that responsibility.
Can I just throw it away like that?